gillian.org/painting 1993-2003

Productivity unlocked: These paintings, in chronological order below, illustrate the emotional processing labor of an early-adult, white, Gen-X, afab-giant, with motor and communication challenges along the spectrum (and no conception of such a thing), who was afforded an education in the "visual history of the written Western world", then left to herself to make sense of it all.

Chance, 1993 oil on canvas 12"x36"

Glow, 1994 oil on canvas 24"x36"

Birth Mother, 1994 oil on canvas 20"x20"

Small Corner, 1995 oil on canvas 20"x20"

Me, at the Fires, 1995 oil on canvas 16"x20"

Passage, 1995 oil on canvas 15"x30"

On Whose Two Feet, 1995 oil on canvas 16"x20"

The Three of Us, 1995 oil on canvas 20"x20"

Death Between Friends, 1996 oil on canvas 20"x20"

Alone With, 1996 oil on canvas 16"x20"

Any Three, 1996 oil on canvas 20"x20"

Poormouthing, 1996 oil on canvas 12"x12"

Two Wed, 1997 oil on canvas 18"x18"

Guilt, 1997 oil on canvas 10"x24"

Trying and Failing, 1997 oil on canvas postcard 4"x6"

Godspeed, 1997 oil on canvas 12"x12"

Shivered, 1997 oil on canvas postcard 4"x6"

Trying and Failing, 1998 oil on plywood 24"x36"

Spectacle, 1998 oil on board 4'x6'

Island, 1999 oil on canvas 60"x20"

Miscarriage, 1999 oil on board 20"x20"

Saint Antonio of the Fifth Grade, 1999 oil on canvas 20"x20"

Extract, 1999 oil on board 18"x18"

Freedom, 1999 oil on board 20"x20"

Tambor, 2000 oil on canvas 48"x48"

Learning to Fight, 2000 oil on board 26"x26"

Queens, 2000 oil on canvas 26"x26"

She, 2001 oil on canvas 27"x18"

She, Her, and Herself, 2001 oil on canvas (3)27"x18"

Swoon, 2001 oil on canvas 26"x26"

The Ecstacy of Maintaining One's Position, 2001 oil on canvas 4'x6'

The Ecstacy of Maintaining One's Position, 2001 oil on canvas 4'x6'

The Ecstacy of Maintaining One's Position, 2001 oil on canvas 4'x6'

The Ecstacy of Maintaining One's Position, 2001 oil on canvas 4'x6'

The Ecstacy of Maintaining One's Position, 2001 oil on canvas 4'x6'

Daughter, 2003 oil on canvas 24"x64"

Ha ha ha - many blessings to you if you got this far. They are really terrible in retrospect--but in the act of making them and receiving criticism, I learned how to cue the viewer to perceive what I intended. XO